Confidently Broken

14 Apr 2025 12:35

Recently I was sitting in a Women's Bible Study group. We were talking about Hebrew's 4:16 “Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.” I have heard this verse many times over the years but I always just kind of rejected it. I am almost never confident so how can I possibly "approach God's throne of grace with confidence." It makes no sense. But that day I felt the stirring of the Holy Spirit in me. It's not about me being confident in me. It's about God. Its not me standing tall with my shoulders back proudly proclaiming my confidence in me. No no no my friends. It's confidence in knowing that whether I have to crawl, run, walk, jump... however fast or slow... it's confidence in knowing that when I approach God's thrown I will be accepted, loved, treasured, and seen. No matter how broken I think I am. No matter how many times I have sinned and fallen short. No matter how long it's been since I've been in His church. I am confidently broken. So whatever your story is. Whether you grew up in the church or if you've never stepped foot in one. Whether you feel completely lost and broken or if you feel like hey life's going well. Go to the cross. Go to church. Just go. Bring yourself as you are and I promise you will not leave unchanged. God loves you more than you can possibly imagine! 

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God the Whittler

18 Jan 2025 22:49

I have this picture in my head of like a person whittling with wood and then like he blows all the dust and debris away and then a of sudden there’s this beautiful unique masterpiece. And tho one masterpiece may be very similar to another no one masterpiece is the same. God is the whittler we are the wood turned masterpieces. 

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One night as I laid in bed praying I had the thought...What would it be like to lay my whole body on the saviors chest? Maybe My body would be curled in a safe little cocoon. Or maybe I’d be sprawled out not a care in the world. I think it’d feel warm and so very cozy but I’d never get too warm. It’d be like laying on one of those temp adjusting beds but way way way better. I’d physically feel the love of God. His heart beat would beat against me. I would know without a shadow of doubt that I am His and he is mine… but I already know that… it’d be life giving. I’d never want to leave. He wouldn’t leave me alone in the van. He would keep me safe and loved and wholly and completely and beautifully me. 

Back in August I was at church and as we worshiped like the Lord he gave me this picture and I don't know exactly how to describe it but like it’s about the global church. You see all over the world at perhaps millions of churches no matter what they look like maybe it’s a church that rents out a store. Maybe it’s a huge church with thousands of people. Maybe it’s a tiny church with 5 people meeting in someone’s house. Maybe it’s believers meeting in secret because where they live it’s not safe to be a Christian. And then I pictured all of the churches they’re all connected it’s like a giant invisible  shooting star that zooms and bing ping bing ping shooting star it connects all of the churches around the world. That shooting star it’s horizontally going across the world and then bing ping bing ping and all the light of all the churches all worshiping it shoots shooting star light up to heaven. And then in heaven all the believers from all time and all the angels and heavenly beings they’re all joining in worship and praising God. So much shooting star bright light it literally soaks out all darkness. And that is the POWER of my JESUS.